I look good today & I will not apologize for thinking it!!

As I looked at myself in the mirror today I thought “Damn, I look so hot today!!” 

Usually, I would feel vain about thinking this but you know what? I will NOT apologize for finding myself attractive. 

I worked hard for this body. I continue to work every day to not only maintain but improve this body. Why should I be made to think these thoughts are wrong?

Yes, a year ago, I would have thought that a girl who looked at herself in the mirror and had that thought was vain. 


I would think this because I was jealous. I was jealous. If you think this about another girl, then you need to admit to yourself that you are jealous

Now that that’s out of the way, I am here to tell you that if you are unhappy with any part of you…..CHANGE IT! Stop dwelling and stop spending your precious time wanting what others have!

Your body is what you make it. Yes, your body is a temple. My temple has recently undergone construction and is still making adjustments. 

It is never too late to change what makes you unhappy. I once thought my life was set, that my life was as good as it was going to get (2 kids, 235lbs, yeah that was me). Then divorce happened. It was a rush of cold water to my face. I wasn’t 80 years old, I was 27 years old. I had so much life ahead of me. Why should I let this man define who I was going to be for the rest of my life? I changed my life and realized that self love would keep me going further. 

I deserve to be proud of my hard work. You deserve to be proud of your hard work. 

So……I will restate……

Damn, I look so hot today!!



The Breastaurant

What is a breastaraunt?

Until recently I myself didn’t know this word existed.

A breastaurant is a restaurant that has skimpily-dressed female waiting staff. The term “breastaurant” dates from the early 1990s, around the time that the restaurant chain Hooters became popular in the United States-wikipedia

So why do I bring this up?

Well, as I stood in the bathroom of a breastaurant waiting to be evaluated for the fit of my new uniform, I thought how did I get here??

How did I go from being so insecure that the mere mention of a breastaurant put me on the defensive and every girl that worked there automatically had no amount of self worth looking for validation from men to –> actually seeing this new position as a badge of achievement?

That is what I see this new position as. I see this as the finish line of the marathon I’ve been on the last year and a half. A complete body transformation that has now brought me to a new beginning.

This is my new badge and I wear it proudly knowing that it documents the hard work and determination that I have put into the transformation of my body to be what I find beautiful and what I knew I could always be.

This blog is meant to be a reflection on my transformation which includes: divorce, remarriage, weight loss (not sure how much exactly, haven’t weighed myself in a long time but 75+ pounds), surgery (to correct the effects of the weight loss), career changes, parenthood, and graduate school.

Follow me to gain an insight into these topics as they apply to my life. It is my hope that my “thoughts and such” help anyone it can and create comradery for the like-minded.